OMG i am so worried about the work load i have been given or we all have been given i think i need to get onto it immediately! i am also tryin to organise a meeting to get our events and things started for our exhibition cos i think our year is slacking, i think this is down to us all not really getting to know each other until this last year!!

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OMG also forgot to say my external hard drive has decided to die on me :( which is proving kinda difficult seen as it had all my past work on it shitty i no! but o well! im also having to borrow one then get another for next year! cant believe it happened this late in the game darn it!

I'm going to start my interactive trailer tomorrow bit confused with it all really finding it all abit difficult, for example making an invisible button and to make the button have a sound. Don't get me wrong i am finding the tutorials a great help but still i'm just not getting the knack of it maybe this is why i didn't choose animation, or games or web to come to that! The worst thing is that i have to do another production file, atm i feel like there is a heavy load on our shoulders for the 19th of may, i think i would of benefitted the seminars on flash CS3 a little earlier to be honest, then i would have had a better and clearer understanding of what it entails. Also i kinda wish we had gone through all the things that were meant to be in our EPT a little earlier u know we have the brief and assessment criteria, but maybe if like we had done with Jules today gone through it in simpler terms i would of got it, me not being very tech savvy and all!! Oh well thats my bitch and rant and rave over!

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Term Three

Its now term three :) Goodtimes. and i have to edit my 6 min film and write a three thousand word essay arghh! also i'm annoyed as my best piece of work so far may have gone which is stupid of me. My pilot was saved onto my hard drive and it has decided to make some random noises and not show up on my mac!! And it was also on my USB stick and the one on there wont work! so i'm going to have to get someone to help by calling someone to come and have a look at it!! :( Badtimes.

The nerves are kicking in now as i'm getting ready for my assessment. I really do find it terrifying working on your own but at the same time it's getting easier it's just the asking of questions that i struggle with i find it really hard to put what i want to say into words, then i stumble, stutter and eventually fall!! i'm hoping it is all as good as i hope! i think myself i have really progressed in the sense that i now know how to use lights, i know how to do the sound, camera. I also realised that if you want to get that good quality it's better of you get people who speacialise in there own areas to help you. The sound quality this time round was amazing, The camera work was brilliant, there was hardly any shadowing, which that was due to me taking out a set of lights and trying them out for myself before we shot. i'm excited!

Editting

I can do it, i actually taught myself on premier and im not that bad if i do say so myself. I enjoyed doing this alot more than the directing, although fitting clips into 40secs is a massive struggle. But i have done it. I am finding that i am having to rule each role out as i go along. Directing is out but editting is not bad. I have really found i enjoy doing the arts production side of things, such as props sets, hair makeup, clothes. I know thats not so much to do this with this course but i think i have found my calling, i'm guessing people will think big air head come to do a degree and wants to hair and makeup ha!! but it's not just that it's also the prosthetics, thinking up of different ideas to make something happen really intrigues me. Well i'm still quite puzzeled but i know what i am becoming interested in now and what i'm not.

Filming was great except, my Actress who was supposed to play Angelina didn't turn up :( but thank you very much Sherri took on the role.

I found i really enjoyed it, but i don't think i would choose to be a director again anytime soon, I'm rubbish Haha! i'm too sheepish and not outspoken enough 'even though i have a massive mouth' ha. I think i didn't enjoy it because i don't feel like i can take full control, and also i like someone to tell me what i have to do and how they would like it. i dunno whether it was nerves or what just was something different i suppose.

This is my crew

Hey so this is my crew and these are the dates im filming and also the place i will be filming.

Arts Production, Stills camera man, Lights assit. - Sherrilyn Lombardelli
Camera Man – Leslie mantock
Lights, Sound technician - Sejpaal Naul
Director, Arts Production (Hair and makeup, clothing design) , stills assit. –Hollie Marshall

Tues 26th feb, Weds 27th feb

126 Portland road
Nottingham

Yay!!

This is the email alison sent me!
Bit short notice but its fine!

Hi Hollie
this is maybe too late now . I sent you and email through your link on star now but today read send an email on your usual account .

Hopefully you are sorted but if not apologies for being dumb.

Anyway I am in chesterfield and despite half term could juggle to help you out . No not lots of experience but I'd be there for you and give it my best .See my website at -www.alisonturnbull.co.uk

If you are sorted -- hope all goes well-- --!!!!

OH NOOOOO!!

Right My Marianne has now dropped out at last minute i emailed and tx her to see if everything was ok and she had somethng which i won't discuss but was important soooo looking for another Marianne and also for Crew i had me, sherri, Les, sej and Owais but Les is unsure if he can do them dates so i think i am going to postpone and put it back to the tuesday 26th and the wednesday the 27th of feb, the n that also gives me time to find a new Marianne i have emailed a few women from starnow it's just playing the waiting game really. I am also going to ring around colleges and schools see if any tutors are interested. wish me luck!

Books and films that have inspired me
I have recently read the books Damaged and Beautiful child which were both true stories these books gave me the ignition write my script, I chose not to go down the physical abuse path as they both are, but to use the subject of mental abuse. The ideas for my script came from some true to life situations. I chose to use a mother daughter relationship because I have always found mine with my mother very good, and have been able to discuss anything with her, and I thought of this as a challenge to see if I could write something which I didn’t really know about.
Imaginary Girl is a short, but unlike ours it is ten minutes rather than six. It is about a young girl whose mother is never happy, she doesn’t want the young girl to play with made up villages anymore, which are made by the father. She wants her to go out and play ‘like all the other children’. The girl’s mother and father are either split or divorced, and this seems to be why the mother doesn’t want the child to play with the things her father gave her, she seems to take her anger from the father out on the young girl. This inspired me to write about mental abuse rather than physical because it is quite common from parents who push their children for more.


Imaginary Girl- Writer/Director: Richard Porter
Damaged by Cathy Glass
Beautiful Child by Torey Hayden

Okay, so i have found to actress' one named Leisha Keane and one named Rosie Shannon, Leisha will be playing the character Angelina, and Rosie Marianne. They both seem really keen and interested in their parts. Filming will commence on the 23rd and 24th eeeekkkk!!

Kari hill was not able to shoot on the dates i was wanting which is a massive bummer argh, but i will keep looking hehe!!

Premise

Premise
Angelina is beginning to get her life together, a house, a job, and friends. Then ‘Bam’ it comes back again. This film shows how strength can set you free, and how the tables can turn.

Responses via starnow

So i have had a few new prospective actress' they are Sammi read who i don't think will fit the part she is 18 but also a young 18 and also is blonde and i'm trying to find a brunette, i no i'm very piccy. There was also a woman named 'Onna' Julianna Rhead myspace.com/retrorubber that is her link if any of you fancy a look, but she didn't really fit the bill for a mother role or Angelina as she was in her late 20's.

I have also had a look at a girl called Kari and have emailed her she looks good for the part we'll see...

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6 Minute short

Notice no. 232 - Nottingham, United Kingdom
Hi My name is Hollie Marshall, I'm a second year Multimedia student at Nottingham Trent, I am making a six minute short film and I am looking for three actress'. A woman aged between 18-25, a child aged between 5-9 who will need to be accompanied by a guardian, also a woman aged between 30-50. Being a student I am unable to pay but I can offer food on the days and some money towards travel, I can also at the end offer you a copy of the finished version on DVD for your own personal use may that be for your portfolio or just for memories. I will be wanting to try and fit the shooting in between two days which are the 18th and 19th of February. Anyone interested please let me no as I am in urgent need, you don't have to have a lot of experience as long as you’re clear in what you’re doing.


Contact name: Hollie Marshall
Contact phone: 0797-603-4170
Email: N0139410@ntu.ac.uk

Above is the notice i put up in stanow i am now waiting for any responses eeeeekkk!!!! this is exciting but scary all in one, anyway let's wait and see...

Original draft treatment

This is a long one haha hope you can read it.



Original Draft Treatment
We begin in a living room an overly tidy living room, nothing is out of place, the room is very cold, not quite lived in yet, very sparse.There’s no pictures, or paintings to show that of family, just a cold room with a few material belongings. The telephone begins to ring, and again, and again. In walks a young woman no more than 22, her hair is dark and tied back, her face is pretty, she is wearing minimal makeup but still ever so precise. She reaches for the telephone, she takes a deep breath and answers “hello” she pauses “right” again another pause “ok, I’ll be ready … goodbye” with not a single expression. She places down the receiver in a slow vacant motion, she looks disheartened and sighs “huhh”, her shoulders slouch a little but still she keeps her strong posture.
She walks into the hallway as if she wasn’t walking at all but floating, she then turns and remembers to turn off the lights, it goes dark. ‘Bang, bang, bang’. There is forceful repeated knocking on the door it stops then comes back much more forceful, ‘Bang, bang, bang’, Angelina comes rushing down the stairs in her night clothes and dressing gown still looking immaculate and speedily rushes to open the front door.
All of a sudden as she opens the door she has a flashback. A middle aged woman is looking with pure disgust down at something or someone.
An old woman is stood in front of the door with her hand raised ready to begin knocking on the door, she is old with curly grey hair and a head scarf tightly around her hair so the wind won’t put it out of place, she is wearing a grey raincoat and a scarf around her neck. She looks at Angelina with utter disgust “Well Angelina, are you going to ask me to come in, or am I to stand here while you look at me so rudely?” She barges past Angelina speedily and firmly into the house. Angelina looks so vulnerable and exhausted.
Angelina goes up to her bedroom to make herself look more respectable, while the old woman is waiting impatiently downstairs. Angelina walks into the kitchen well dressed with not a thing out of place, the old woman is sat rigidly with her legs crossed and her hands tightly holding her bag as if it was something of importance, she sighs about the length of time she has had to wait alone. Angelina walks towards the kettle and begins to make one cup of tea she looks out of the window into a daydream, while stirring the cup of tea vigorously. She walks over and hands the old woman the cup of tea, the old woman takes a sip of tea.
Angelina goes into another flashback. Tea erupts from a middle-aged woman’s mouth and a look of pure disgust rises upon her face as she looks down towards something or someone, “you think I would drink that you disgusting girl, do you think this is good enough for me, you’re never going to amount to anything, you can’t even perform a simple task like making a cup of tea”, she looks down and walks out of the room.
The old woman swallows her sip of tea, and looks at Angelina like she wasn’t even in the room says “you have got better”. Angelina looks down disappointed as though she has nothing left in her to say, even the old woman said it as compliment. The old woman takes out a cluster of paperwork from her bag and slides them along the work top to Angelina. “I mean” she sighs “how do they think we are suppose to choose, it’s not something we really want to discuss is it? Well none of these are suitable not to my standards anyway.”
Angelina has another flashback, the middle-aged woman is stood shaking her head and tapping her foot in frustration and fury, she seems to be looking at some child’s drawings. The drawings have pictures of a happy daughter and father in fields and houses, they look so happy together. A look of anger grows across the woman’s face.
“This will not do, this will just not do young lady, how can you even begin to imagine winning the schools competition with this standard of drawings, I am disappointed Angelina, very disappointed. And why Angelina why? I don’t even need to ask, is that you’re father on here?” she says as she taps her finger on the picture. “Do you think being daddy’s little girl will work for you all your life, he needs to wake up and realise you’re not the little angel he believes, and you’re just a little girl with nothing nice about her at all, you will never make me happy nor will you ever amount to anything Angelina.” She rips up the drawings into shreds with anger, and leaves the room.
Angelina has a dazed look on her face, as she listens to the woman babbling, her face begins to focus and she listens to what she is saying.
“So I think the only one that will do is this one yes?” Angelina nods phased by what she is saying
“I think I will say a few words and you can if you want” she looks at Angelina knowingly that she isn’t paying attention. She tries to catch her eye. “Angelina, Angelina are you listening to me? Angie!” Angelina startled looks up at her for what she has just called her. “Ah right Angelina, we need to discuss this I know it’s not pleasant but it won’t wait I really need you to help me with this I need you Angie!” A sudden burst of anger and frustration come across Angelina’s face, she snaps “YOU, YOU MOTHER, YOU NEED ME? An independent woman like you mother. Where were you?” Angelina’s face closes in on her mother, she becomes face to face with her, she gets her breath and steps away, she walks towards the sink and heavily blows out her rage. “Where were you when I needed a mother, not a cold hard bitch that thought I could never amount to anything, and was never satisfied with me for who I am.” She looks as though she is about to cry, but still manages to keep her composure, she knows it is essential for what she is about to do. She looks out of the window and looks as if remembering a small smile comes across her face. “you hated that dad loved me, that he wanted to spend time with me, do you know my best memories are christmas’ with grandma and grandpops in America, when you weren’t there. I was just a little girl all I wanted was for you to love me, but all you did was bully me mother.” she stands tall and looks out of the window, she turns towards her mother.
“so I’m sorry if I don’t want to talk about which one I think he would want or which one would be best for him, because frankly I think he’s up there thanking God he’s no longer down here with you. But I am, and I can’t do it anymore, after dad’s funeral you won’t see me again, I have waited years to free myself from you and now I have. Please leave my house and my life Marianne.”
Her mother looks up at Angelina as though, she has had her world turned upside down, she looks just like Angelina did as a child disappointed in herself, she looks up at her last hope.“ But Angelina I need you now!” she smiles politely. Angelina does not move or even look up at her mother “Marianne leave my house.” Marianne slowly stands up, all of her strength has vanished and she is now just a bitter frail old woman who has nothing to offer anybody. She grabs her bag and the paperwork and walks out of the kitchen.
Angelina walks out behind her, Marianne opens the front door and takes a last look behind her as she looks for hope of her changing her mind, Angelina shows no remorse. Marianne walks out the door. Angelina takes a deep breath and composes herself she sighs, as her face begins to crack and a small smile comes across her face, a smile of relief.

Hollie Marshall Script
Instructions and guidelines - phase one

o Characters come alive
o Conflict
o Satifactory conclusion and/or resolution
o Avoid stereotypes
o Stories can leave you wondering
o Scenes Where does the story take place? (location/time)
o Dialogue
o Act 1- Beginnig: exposition/inciting event
o Act 2- Middle: conflict/complication
o Act 3- End: resolution
o Who is the protagonist? (Main character who drives the story)
o What do they want? What gets in the way? What do they do?
o (goals + conflict = actions)
o Title
o Scene headings
o Dialogue
o Character cues
o Personal direction

Original idea

i have began writing about a woman/girl who is dreaming and this dream is going to be all flashbacks of her past and basically her past is her trying to live up to her mothers expectations/standards and for her to get to this stage she has gone thru emotional and mental abuse from her mother who thinks little of her daughter, but in the end the resolution is she is the only one who can give herself the acceptance she needs. i want it to be surreal throughout the dreams with black and white and kind of that creepy eerie sense of childhood like the nursery rhymes kinda thing.

I sent this email to jules for feedback on his thoughts for my script, he emailed me back saying he liked it but thinks it would be much better if I didn't have the flashbacks. So the challenge is how can I achieve the feelings that I described and the backstory without the flashbacks. Im going to watch a video on a mother daughter relationship to get some good ideas on how to work with subtext the underlining meaning and showing her emotions and feelings without her having the direct flashbacks this therefore would give it a bit more of a twist i still want to keep to the surreal theme but i want to make it more like a emotional piece.